This morning one of the bloggers that I absolutely loved reading, decided to say goodbye to her blog. All the sad faces.
But it got me thinking; I have been feeling the same for the last few months. I have tried to take a break from it, to see if I can find my love for it again… and sometimes I do. I get a whole rush of motivation and have a hundred different ideas and fall back in love with it, and then slowly but surely- I fall out of it again a few days or weeks later.
And this has been the same for probably over 5 Months now.
But what do I do?
Do I give up? After 2.5 years of hard work, love, stress, tears and more work? (But ultimately- one of the best jobs I have ever had) or do I give it one more go- but this time differently.
It’s so hard to find that work/ life/ blog balance. I used to attend UNI, work on a bar Thursday through to Sunday AND still find the time to blog- so why can’t I do it now- with only a 7-8 Monday- Friday work work to deal with (including my commute)?
I think what’s made it so much harder to blog is the fact that the industry has changed so much in the last few years. There is double if not triple the amount of bloggers popping up everywhere and the level of standard has definitely increased. The pressure to create original, lol-worthy content with stunning photography and uploading CONSTANTLY with full social media usage has become the norm- and I’m just not good enough. Which is probably the most disheartening thing. I feel like the amount of time I have will never equate to enough effort to be anywhere near as good as the other blogs out there…
But then I realised- I stated blogging because I loved writing. I loved the challenge and the creativity. I did it for me- not for anyone else. Why have I let everything commercial and professional get in the way!? I started treating my blog as a job rather than a hobby, and who wants to leave their normal job to go to another which doesn’t actually pay very much at all? I was attacking the issue the complete wrong way. I sucked all the fun out of it- and it became so mundane and dull. I should have been spending that time to try and find ways to enjoy it again- and that’s what I am now determined to do.
I am giving you one last chance. And this time we are going to go back to our roots and do this right. Because I’m not ready to give up on you just yet.
We are going to work out our differences and our problems and change that love on the surface back to deeply, madly – in love because I know it’s still there somewhere.